For some reason, today is a pretty depressing day for me, even though I had fun going out to see old friends again. I feel as if I am once again lost in the dark forest of life and am in need of that one guiding light that will lead me out of this mess. I didn’t think that this dark forest of life is that thick! I guess I just have to keep walking and hope that I will find the way out soon enough.

I think this sadness is due to my half-sick (I feel sick but am not totally sick) nose’s sensory. I don’t know if it’s just only me or not but whenever I get sick (or close to being sick), everything starts to smell in a particular way. And this particular scent of things reminds me of just about every sad thing in my life! I really doubt anyone can understand what I wrote in this paragraph but anyways, I’m half awake right now. I think this is caused due to the reason that I usually get sick when it’s cold outside and whenever it’s cold outside means it’s the winter time and whenever it’s the winter time, I usually get sad….make sense?

While at the BBQ tonight, we were sitting around just relaxing and watched a pretty interesting movie called “City of God.” The movie basically described about life in the “hood” in a particular “ghetto” part of Brazil. I didn’t know life was that crazy and scary according to the movie down south. Anyway, the movie was really complicated at times, one would be lost if he/she hasn’t been following the many intertwined stories within the movie closely. Even though I followed movie as close as I could, I don’t think I have grasped every detail of the movie entirely.

Ok, that’s it for the night; I’m going to head to bed. It’s kind of hard to think this late to write more. I hope I made sense. I promise to write more about the past two days when I get a chance. So good night and good day to the 3 people out there that actually visit my journal daily, appreciate it!

Craziness! Only 20 days left until grad school! I'm looking forward to it! But then I'm not really looking forward to the work and readings and the tough classes!